This afternoon I took Zed to be euthanized. It was one of the harder things I’ve had to do in my life but his quality of life has been dropping. It was to the point he couldn’t climb up on things or stay standing. It didn’t stop him from trying! Today when he started to show signs of hepatic encephalopathy again I knew it was time.
Zed liked to hang out in the baby sling so I took him to the vet in that instead of the carrier. They gave him some baby food so he could have something tasty (he’s been on a horrible low protein diet) and then we just hung out together until I was ready. He went peacefully.
It’s going to take time for me to process this but I have zero regrets. He made me so happy.
I had Zed buried so that he can be a part of the universe again. And I’ll take comfort in knowing that even if my memory goes I will still be breathing the same air that he did.